mahalkitax3:

You tend to over think things and put meaning on every single move they make. You overlook their flaws and try to pick out their good qualities instead of the bad. Everything about them suddenly becomes beautiful to you, and you learn to accept them no matter their imperfections. No matter what other people say, you’ll always have a good opinion of them. Just hearing their name, and you automatically think they will always be the best out of everybody. 

This is so true, but break my heart and you’re one ugly mofo

(via xtrinhney)

OH HOW I despise you so. Especially at this time of month..Why must I get so emotionally unstable but why must he be such an asshole when he knows how I am right now. We just stopped talking. He couldn’t handle talking to me with the mood I’m on when I’m on my t.o.m. I don’t want to be like this, wtf..why must I have all these symptoms..do true feelings come out when you’re on it or just because the pms? I’m so wack right now I don’t think anyone would wanna talk to me so I warn them before talking to me. C just says “oh lord lol whatever makes you happy” I’m so weird..

Shoe Size: 6.5

Sexual Orientation: Bi

Do you smoke? No

Do you drink? Egh

Do you take drugs? Daily vitamins

Age you get mistaken for: 18-21

Have tattoos? No

Want any tattoos? Not really

Got any piercings? Yes

Want any piercings? Yes. Belly, cartilage, lip

Best Friend? Yes

Relationship Status: Taken

Biggest turn ons: Sense of humor, good hygiene, nice smile, nice hair.

Biggest turn offs: Bad hygiene, careless lifestyle, selfish

Favorite movie: The Notebook, A Walk To Remember, The Proposal, +more

I’ll love you if: You give me my space and time until I’m ready to let my guard down

Someone you miss: Johnson

Most traumatic moment: Sophomore year.

A fact about your personality: I lie about how strong I am, in hopes of actually becoming that person

What I hate most about myself: I’m stubborn af

What I love most about myself: I act w/o thinking about what others will think

What I want to be when I’m older: Happy and successful

My relationship with my sibling(s): There are some ups & downs w/ 4 older brothers.

My relationship with my parents: It’s very distant nowadays.

My idea of a perfect date: Surprise me with something spontaneous

My biggest pet peeve: People who don’t even try but still get somewhere in life.

Description of the boy I like: He’s weird like me

Description of the person I hate the most: I don’t know someone enough to a point where I can hate them

A reason why I have lied to a friend: I was scared to tell them the truth

What I hate most about school: The whole process.

What my last text message says: “I have a runny nose and Ima sleep upwards srry.”

What words upset me the most: Anything that insults my capabilities

What words make up me: Weird, lazy, hungry.

A wish I have repeated many times on 11:11: I just want to be happy

What I find attractive in a boy: Compatibility

Where would I like to live: New York City

One of my insecurities: My face

My childhood career: A veterinarian

My favorite icecream: Cookies ‘n’ Cream

Who I wish I could be: Someone who’s happy and knows what she wants

Where I wish I could be: The beach

The last thing I ate: Little Caesar’s pizza

Sexiest person that comes to my mind immediately: Johnson

Random fact about anything: I think I’ll be crying to sleep tonight.

I stand there trying not to talk back just thinking to myself “Don’t say anything, don’t say anything, don’t talk back,” and it works. But I couldn’t help myself from yelling back before because she started to yell at me in that tone that I despise the most. I even talked back to my brother and he was just getting on my nerves a little and yet I snapped at him just because he was being picky about this photoshop picture I made for his business card. I said he should be grateful, I suppose I should be grateful. Sometimes I don’t think before I speak, but that’s only sometimes when I’m truly aggravated. I even snapped at my dad. He texted me saying he was in the junior lot and I had to walk around the whole place to find out he was literally blocking traffic and I was just wondering why he couldn’t park or find some place to not get in the way of traffic because we would be stuck in traffic anyway..I just couldn’t understand..Why have I been so bitchy lately..is it because of prom? Is it because of grad night? Do I really want to go? Would I really regret it if I don’t go? I told him I would only go if he goes with me and he told me I would regret it. But I just don’t have the money. It would be nice to dress up for a day again and this time after my jaw surgery and all might be different but I suppose I deserve to be alone on that day of prom. A lot of people go stag. I’ve been so tense and I’m not even taking the CSTs..what is the matter with me? Am I trippin’ balls? Am I trippin’ over nothing? Is it just senioritis? Maybe it’s just my home and environment that I despise. I hate this house. As much as I clean it, it still gets dirty. It will never be clean. My mom just adds on to the mess with all the damn hoarding she does. She’s in denial. She rather fill up the extra room with piles of shit, empty boxes, and what not to the ceiling than let me use it as my own room. I just can’t handle it anymore. I know I’m fortunate to have a roof over my head but it’s the screaming and yelling that I can’t stand that goes on in this household. My mom chooses to be at work all day, she chooses to come home and clean, she chooses to make dinner, she chooses to do laundry and yet she complains about it and gives everyone a guilt trip of how she’s working all day on her feet and HAS to come home to clean and make dinner. First of all, my dad made dinner tonight and second of all she doesn’t HAVE to do anything. Yelling isn’t going to make me do chores any faster. It doesn’t give me any motivation to clean since I clean every fucking day. I just want to go to the beach and listen to the waves, it really does soothe me. I need a car to give me that freedom that I need. I need to get away and stop being so tense in my shoulders. I need a license. I need to step up my game. Lastly, I just need to shut up.

My life would be a lot of easier if I were pretty. Some may not get anywhere in life when they’re pretty but I see otherwise. I see girls having doors being open for them and getting good jobs. Appearance does get you farther in life..Pretty people seem to not be down because people think they’re pretty and they know they’re pretty and they just get accepted..I just get all these insecurities and I don’t frkn know why..I just get brought down by all my imperfections but I shouldn’t..

I HATE THIS SHIT. 

fkjalfjaslkfjasj sdfukccsfkjaslfjals sakes… I leave the house for 5 no not even 5 more like 2 minutes and these rents are going ape shit and patrolling my ass. WTF. I don’t understand! I can protect myself. Annoying afffffffff. I want to leave so bad! 2 minutes and I get 5 missed calls.. FUCKING GREAT. I should be grateful..whatever. Appreciative..okay. It’s going overboard though…sneak out once 2 years ago and they’re still on my ass about that shit. FUCK GET THE FUCK OVER IT. I believe I can handle myself for 2 FUCKING MINUTES..I was trying not to cuss but I just couldn’t handle it..I had to explode. The knot at my throat, so angry I wanna cry. I hate this motherfucking feeling. Now I have a headache..